Eeyore's Little Space

Seasons

I'm only slightly ashamed to admit that I was watching OWN last night and watched the whole Life Lessons with Tony Robbins. I discovered that Tony Robbins is deeply spiritual and God-believing, and that he passes on that message without actually preaching. One of the things that I learned last night from Oprah and Tony resonated with me deeply. It's changing my focus and my motivation. It is this:

This is only a season. And seasons don't last forever.

I've decided that my 20's have been my winter of weight issues. Last night I prayed big that I would wake up renewed and refreshed in my determination to lose weight and get healthier before I expect my body to grow a healthy baby. I prayed for strength and inspiration. I also asked for miraculous intervention - like waking up 20lbs lighter, because why not? Go big or go home! Haha.

Today we went for a big walk through the fields with the dogs. I took time to take some pride in my appearance - did my hair, accessorized, put on some perfume (I always do my makeup, so that's a given). I'm cooking a lovely dinner for J and I - and we are drinking wine. Today I feel good - and I'm hoping that with a little divine intervention and a new mindset that my weight spring is upon me, that this feeling will continue through my work week. Although it's Sunderland Music Festival this week, so that could be a challenge!!

Thanks for reading - happy family day!

CB

Panic Attacks

Last night I had a full-blown panic attack. Hysterical sobbing, couldn't breathe - it was terrible. I started thinking about how short life is - dear god. Bring on the anti-psychotics please. It was awful though - J had to come home from a friend's to help me calm down. What is my problem??? He was very patient last night, but I think if it happens again he won't be so understanding!! Poor guy.

Any of you guys ever had an episode like this before?

CB